i’m just a collection of blood and of bone inside a sac of skin this place is my throne a collective work of thoughts that leave me feeling alone a constant reminder that i’ll never truly be home
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Just Awhile
what if i die just for a little while come visit you in the sky and then come back down feet on the ground and move forward from this am i allowed to die just awhile just awhile i swear that i’ll grow after i see you so let me die just awhile just awhile …
Immobile
i’m glued in place wishing i could blast off to outer space and be with you there up in the air somewhere floating around in the bliss that they all talk about
Blinded
now i see you were trying to prepare me for what was to come i was blind then
Catastrophic
falling apart — i guess i have been since the start and i don’t know how to mend the pieces back together instead i sit and suffer afraid i’ll be broken forever how did my day to day become such a catastrophe? i feel like at this point i’d much rather atrophy
Absquatulate
i waited for weeks with no reply to find out you left to chase stars in the sky how could you leave without saying goodbye now all i have left to do is cry why didn’t you tell me was everything a lie you said we were best friends but you left me alone — …
The Isolation Monster
Depression is the saddest, loneliest, most understood monster of them all she sits and suffers alone just because she can feeding on nothing but sadness and tears starving herself of joy losing hope of finding solace — and i know her pain like the back of my own hand but she won’t let me help …
Handful
i think sometimes i forget that these hands that hold and caress you are the same hands that stabbed you in the back
Deteriorating
maybe i’m deteriorating so young because i’m already dead inside
Salutations
Plagued
no matter how many times i tell myself to write i sit and feel sorry instead i think to myself, “what the fuck else is better than just being dead?” but then i reflect on the ones that i love and remember that i’m not alone if i just stick it out though i’m plagued …
Tomorrow
i feel like everyday you say, “tomorrow,” so i never know when “tomorrow” is
Tit for Tat
it’s like we’re always playing tit for tat and if you hurt me i hurt you back
Too Much or Not Enough
sometimes i think “maybe i’m even too much for myself”
Dreary
i wish our problems would evaporate but then i know they’ll fall heavy from the sky on an unexpected dreary day
What If
what if too many days have passed and you don’t love me anymore — what then?
Waxing Crescent
i keep trying to fight back these oceans behind my eyes but the moon pulls on my tides and i let their waves crash on the sands of my skin
DNR
it feels like i’m waiting to die without you here by my side
Miraculous
what the FUCK am i thinking? waiting around like miracles just appear to someone like me even i know miracles — don’t grow on trees
Integration Frustration
let me in your heart so i can get out of my head