Author Archives: Amanda Rose

every time i hold you i hold my beating heart for you are my whole world without you i’ll fall apart

it’s not all so bad i’m not always this sad but you were all i had

cold December breeze wind blows through the trees tears run down my cheeks you’re killing me with ease i scream to death, i freeze i beg, i cry, i plead talk to me please or leave me here to bleed

i didn’t get happy but i got less sad i know i won’t always feel so bad

if flowers bloomed inside my head maybe i’d forget what you said

i don’t care if you get wet when it rains i don’t care because all you do is drain and when it comes to texting i will refrain because you never appreciated me anyways

and if i use my head maybe my thick skull will get it through that we were as good as dead and that i need something shiny & new

i hope it’s always raining i know it ruins your day your attitude is draining there’s nothing left to say

this is new for me it’s scary to let you in what did you do to me you’re the yang to my yin

oh love, how you always go to waste i’m always craving more give me another taste — i’m nonexistent and i’m starving for your face it seems it’s all i have when i’m stuck here in this place

i just keep waiting for the day you’ll come back home but that day is never coming and i’ll always be alone

why am i so fixated on everyone else’s success and at the same time wondering why my life is a mess

too scared to let down these walls just to start over again still waiting for you to call turns out i’m the fool in the end

if it were up to me your hand would be in mine but it wasn’t meant to be — we’ll never intertwine

bow down, baby it’s you who needs me you thought i’d play along but goddamn — you’re so naive

i’m waking up with your alarm even though you’re not here anymore you’ll always keep me awake — and i’ll always feel hollow to my core

you never really gave me the chance to spill my guts instead you left me sitting here going fucking nuts seems like i’m always wondering why i’m not enough but now i’m calling you out i’m calling you on your bluff

i’ve been going through ‘em like a fucking catalog you think that you’re the shit when we both know you’re really not

we watched the foundation of the local movie theater get torn apart much like our own and you mourned for the theater and all of the memories that we could never return to but you never wept for us when we crumbled

i won’t shrink for you i’m sick of feeling small — giving it my all just to be split in two